So this is the first time i've ever written a blog. It kinda seems like a place to vent out what you re thinking at this very moment or maybe something good that has happened and you just want to share with people. In any case, this is my first time writing one and hopefully people will take some time to read it!
So what made feel like blogging? Its actually a bunch of things. One is that i think of things in my head and then i forget it like 5 minutes later. But recently, i felt really encouraged to start figuring out my story. When i say story, I mean my life, my experiences and what made me who i am today. This is an idea taken from a speaker, Jeremy Tao. He said that God shows us our purpose in life through little clues hidden in our stories, our experiences, our DEFINING MOMENTS. As soon as i heard that, I looked back even just briefly in the last couple months and that concept just WOWed me. I mean I am who I am today by my experiences in the past and all the things that God has thrown my way. Whether good experiences, bad experiences, trials, life changing retreats, going to church, going to retreats, all these decisions ive made in my life and what Ive done with what I have learned is what makes me, me.
So i think i want to start blogging mainly because i want to start keeping a track of things that i go through or things that i am thinking about at this moment and in the future, I can look back and read these blogs and realize how much God has really done for me during my lifetime.
I felt challenged to start writing down my story from the very beginning when God opened my eyes, through all these past years ive felt so blessed. The only problem is, i like to keep myself busy by going out or just finding something random to do or watch a movie and I have a hard putting time away for God and even for myself, so i guess in a way this will help me not be somewhat lazy.... hopefully.
Its funny when i think about it, if you would ask me 2 years ago if I could see myself writing a blog, i would say no for sure. That also goes with a lot of things ive done in life, like leading a devotional group during a retreat, leading worship (as in the guy with the mic in the middle doing all the talking), becoming the frosh cell leader, being involved in a discipleship group (DG) or even starting my own DG. All these things, when I look back, I would not have done if I you were to ask me about it in the past couple years.. even in the past year. I ve changed so much since last year and i feel like ive grown so much even in the past 10 months. And all that growing happened because God threw all those experiences, stories, and DEFINING MOMENTS at me. Whether good or bad, Im glad God put me through these things and I see my life shaping up to be something pretty awesome, well to me anyways.
But the past is the past and what people really worry about is the future. Especially being a university student, I can tell you that first hand, its not fun not knowing what is going to happen in the near future career wise. I mean im fortunate to know what I want to do, but getting there and getting in is the struggle for me at this moment. Ive heard of the saying "Fear is because of the unknown". But this verse has been keeping me going since my second year of university when i was all jumbled up between med school, optometry school, nuclear medicine, research, chiropractic college, "In a man's heart, he chooses his course, but God determines his steps" (Proverbs 16:9). So whatever happens to me, whether i get in or not, its up to God. This doesnt mean that i just sit here and wait for God to give me an acceptance letter. It means that Im going to try my best to get into what I want (my course), but ultimately, whether or not the admissions person screws up my application (Almost happened... long story), whether or not my reference letter is sent-in in time before the deadline (another long story), whether or not the admissions people see me as a future optometrist, all these things, ive put in God's hands. Ive done my part and the rest is not in my hands and I am giving it up to God to choose the steps that I will hope to lead to the desires of my heart. For those who dont know, i am applying to optometry school and i have my interview this weekend. Wish me luck! I think i'll stop now before people say.. mann this blog is too long to read haha until next time!
